Flashback: Life Before Baby
Well, I was going to write a post about life before baby and guess what happened? Heidi just woke up crying. So, there’s the end of that great idea. I guess I’ll have to write it another time.
Huh. Irony at work.
Fear: My Own Worst Enemy
I have to admit something here. I’m terrified. I’m feeling really deep anxiety that it’s causing my heart to race and I’m having trouble trying to get to sleep.
I’ll tell you why, in just a moment. First of all, I really just need to get this off of my chest. I know that fear is a really bad, negative emotion, and just by feeling this way I am sending out a negative rift in my universe. I’m actually shaking while I’m typing this - and I’m hoping by writing it here, that I’ll be able to go back to bed and sleep well, and allow the positive feelings back into my system.
I’m terrified because 1) My driver’s license is expiring on February 20. I don’t have a full license yet. In Ontario, we use a graduated licensing system and when I was 25, I finally decided to take my written test for the first level of my license. By passing the written test, I was now allowed to drive with someone who had a full license and at least 5 years of driving experience. It wasn’t until Heidi was 6 months old (I was 27-28) that I decided it might be beneficial for me to go for the second phase (driving test) of my driver’s license - so I could drive alone (much better than carting a stroller on the public transit). Now, I have less than 2 months to take my highway road test so I can have a full driver’s license.
I am confident with my driving abilities, but what I’m afraid of is that: a) I do go over the speed limit; b) I don’t have that much experience driving on highways; and c) I CANNOT LOSE MY LICENSE and go back to PHASE 1! Not with a two-year-old. Not with a job that is 1.5 hours away via public transit. There is NO ROOM for failure. And this… is making me panic like crazy.
And my second problem is: I have a mammogram scheduled for Wednesday the 7th of January. Either way, I know I have a tumor in my breast and it has to go away SOMEHOW. I’m praying that it’s benign but I’m worried about hearing the results from my doctor. I’m worried about treatment. This is really scary for me.
So, I got these off of my chest - and I just let out a deep sigh. Hopefully I have enough positive energy inside me to pass my test and face whatever the results are that I get from my doctor. It would just be nice if there wasn’t so much pressure right now. It’s the beginning of a new year - I would have really preferred to have started off with less worries.
My Spin on Scrambled Eggs
If you have a hard time getting your kid to eat vegetables or just need a quick way to get more than one serving of vegetables for breakfast or lunch, you can try my spin on scrambled eggs.
Ingredients:
4 eggs
1/4 cup milk
pat of butter
1 oz cheddar cheese (shredded)
1 flowerette of finely chopped broccoli
1/8 cup finely chopped green pepper
1/8 cup finely chopped red pepper
1/8 cup finely chopped onion
salt & pepper to taste
Directions:
Place the butter in the pan and let it melt on medium-low. Beat the eggs and whisk in the milk. If you have a food processor, I’d recommend throwing the rest of the ingredients in there to get them nice and fine. Add them to the egg mixture. Scramble your eggs in the pan for 6-7 minutes. Add salt & pepper to taste. It’s very yummy. Even Heidi thinks so. 
Calling Poison Control!
I had a bit of a scare tonight.
This doesn’t happen often, but tonight I actually got some help from the hubs to make dinner tonight. It was 8:30 pm and I figured that the only way I could get a meal on the table before 9 would be to call for backup. While Dan and I were putting the rice and green beans on the stove, a little, sneaky 2 year old managed to get her hands on her Princess vitamins that were on the kitchen counter beside us.
We didn’t even know it until we noticed that it was unusually quiet for this time of night. Dan peaked into her room and discovered that she was sitting under her table with her back turned to the door. Dan asked what she was doing, and she replied with “eating a Princess!”. We know that the only time she eats a princess is after she brushes her teeth in the morning… so Dan decided to investigate.
Heidi had managed to OPEN the CHILD-SAFE vitamin bottle, and down about 20 princess gummies (we actually had to count the remaining vitamins in the bottle to find out how many she’d stolen). In horror, I immediately called the Toronto Poison Control with the open bottle in my hands. Fortunately for all of us, there is not enough Vitamin A or Iron in the bottle to seriously harm a child if they consume too many at once. Heidi just ate about 6000mcg of Vitamin A and the poison control rep told me that she may just experience stomach cramping and diarrhea.
Lesson learned: Heidi can reach the counter now - must keep multi-vitamins in the cupboard!
EDIT: Note to Jen & Melissa - I accidentally deleted this post and lost your comments. Jen, thanks for the theme! Melissa, I’m glad it was vitamins too! The only side-effect that Heidi seemed to experience was gas.
